lovely lovely lovely

astro return

2007-11-03T17:06:24Z

Holiday! ***
Happy birthday! Today the Sun returns to the position it was in when you were born.
As would seem appropriate with this transit, today is a day of new beginnings, and the influences you feel today will affect the entire year to come. However, this does not mean that the whole year will be disappointing if today doesn't work out exactly as planned. You are receiving a new impulse from the energy center within you, as symbolized by the Sun. Therefore any new venture that you start at this time will ride the crest of this new energy and will very likely come to an acceptable conclusion. Whatever you do or begin today will bear the stamp of your individuality more than anything else. This is the day to assert yourself anew.

and zeee planets!

Current Planets
3-Nov-2007, 17:01 UT/GMT
Sun 10 53'21" - scorpio
Moon 2 12'58" - virgo
Mercury 23 38'22" - libra
Venus 24 32'42" - virgo
Mars 11 32'25" - cancer
Jupiter 20 8'40" - saggitarius
Saturn 6 42' 0" - virgo
Uranus 14 57'12"r -pisces
Neptune 19 15' 1" -aquarius
Pluto 27 8'10" -sagg
TrueNode 4 52'10" - pisces
Chiron 10 35'11 -aquarious

california

2007-08-31T03:21:03Z

you need to pack your bags and get on the train.. cause this is fucked up, fucked up

i packed my bags, and i got on the pl"train" and its the best thing i have done in awhile!

smashing.

2007-08-23T22:25:26Z

Your Inner European is Italian!

Passionate and colorful.
You show the world what culture really is.

Who's Your Inner European?

1 year

2007-07-09T03:24:28Z

its been a year.

wow.

friends only

2006-06-06T02:45:15Z

this is a friends only journal... if you want to be added in, let me know ;)

"uncertainty and expectation are the joys of life" Congreve

103 days

2006-06-02T18:23:36Z

103 days until Jacob is home!!!

picnics and massages

2006-06-02T04:47:43Z

d.j. and i decided at javas tonight that on monday we are going to have massages and a picnic on monday. sveet. im excited. i had an eventful day... I suppose.

I got up in the mid-afternoon, after painfully waking up a few times... today was pretty bad on the pain level. I am so glad it is almost over. Dr. Kaza said i should feel back to normal by next friday. lets hope. i am going to do whatever i have to to make sure i am at Radiohead.

Kurt came by and we got some food and went to Lakeshore Records...I bought a Radiohead album I needed to replace due to scratches and I also got a live CD which I am listening to right now. Word.

We went to javas, chilled... and then adult video... then we drove back here.

I wish i felt better. another week...

okay. goodnight.

feeling good

2006-05-31T06:04:18Z

i took my pain meds and i am feeeeeling good. I am sad that Lindseys car died. and I am sad that I got her sick. and I am also sad that I got Kurt sick. other than that

RADIOHEAD IN 5 DAYS.

wow. i rule, now i am going to go downstairs and collect my back massage from Eric.

WORD.

has it been a month?

2006-05-31T01:23:49Z

damn. like i said before... transitions, transitions, transitions.... this month has thrown me three of the biggest things i have ever had to deal with, ever. for those of you close to me, you know all three. for most of my friends, you know two. I cannot believe Uncle Spencer is really gone.... nothing in my life seems worth complaining about when i think about the loss of an uncle. a father, a husband, a binding piece of the family. He may be gone in the physical sense, but he is with us, watching over us... i hope. Several things lead me to believe he is with us. As i sit in the house that he built, i cannot help but be bomboarded with memories of him... and i suppose i like it that way. His son is my best friend (also my cousin)... but he is all we have to remind us of what is gone.... its the small details that make me realize how I am different because of the way that Uncle affected us, and I miss him. My cousin Robert and I went to the lake today, and its just so hard to believe that on June 2, it will be a month. WoW. To the land of reality... my roomate Karl and I (about to be ex-roomates... our lease ends tommororw) have to deal with a psychotic bitch landlord who insists we did not clean the apartment enough... well FUCK THAT... she is CRAZY! crazy crazy crazy lady. I need to find a job.... and I also need to heal... and as i have said before... fucking RADIOHEAD in .... 5 days!!! & my tatoo is pretty much healed!!! yay... then my life might be a little more complete. Yup. love that. love life. love love love love love RIP Uncle Spencer 5.2.06

its really hot outside.

2006-05-30T22:25:32Z

i did wake up feeling like crap. but... my mom was feeling worse.... she couldn't breath very well... so i took her to the doctor right after i rolled out of bed... they fixed her up, and my doctor actually took a look at my throat... he said it looked very raw... and thats how it feels. I see my specialist tommorrow... so that is that.
my brother is gone with my car... not that i can go anywhere... but I want him to take me to the lake or something. god... when is the pain going to go away? when will the desire to eat occur? FUCK.
radiohead, radiohead, radiohead... 5 days and COUNTING!!!!

glorious day

2006-05-30T04:18:41Z

so... yeah... today was probley the most eventful day I have had post-surgery! I got up and just felt like CRAP... but as rhe day progressed I started to feel better... Aunt Karen came over after I took a nap and a shower... (the nap was luscious, by the way~) she brought me some gorgeous flowers! So.. we decided we were going to go out to eat, and perhaps we could find some cold soup... after driving around Palmyra... we decided to go to the city because, lets just be honest... Palmyra just DOES NOT DO IT for me. Its small and dreadfully tacky!
Rochester.... ohhhh Rochester..... we stopped by Javas... I had a banana-strawberry smoothie, I couldn't hang with it though... to thick, and I opted for a Kinky Regee... always a good solution... so we hung out and then we left... went to Aunt Karens and she made me some mashed potatoes.. and she is just my hero, because that is quite the task on such a hot day....
Elliott came by and picked me up... we drove around, talked, chilled, went to javas again.... then Ellison Park..... and then he had rehersal... so I went to Aunt Karens and read the NY TImes and walked back to javas... to meet up with Nathan....Nathan and Chopstix drove me back to Palmyra... here I am ... dreading going to bed, and then waking up to feel like shit!

Fuck, i have a headache.. i cannot do this anymore.. goodnight and sweet dreams!

tonsils tonsils tonsils

2006-05-29T16:10:55Z

i hate to dwell on anythng... but this pain is killer!!! it seems like, I wake up feeling like complete and total SHIT... but as the day progresses... things get better... uhhhggg... I simply cannot wait until this proccess is over. My only consolation/distress at this moment is Radiohead .... I am certainly planning on going.... but will I be healed enough to go? that is the question. I am going to do my best to feel better, but I only have minimal control! I just cannot stop thinking about it. So... the decision is made, i AM GOING. I just hope my body is healed to the degree where I can at least some some herb, ya know?
Damn, my mother has been really awesome this week. I mean, just excellent. We have had our little dissagreements, but overall, I am actually enjoying myself here. Even with all of the crazy animals. And, I like being around Chad... apparently my parents are sending him to rehab when their insurance kicks in... but I just do not see that happening... I understand their logic... but, it will be a much different thing to see the action carried out.
I need a job, i NEED a job... I am interviewing and stuff, so who knows. And, quite honestly, I am glad I am not tied into one now, cause I would probley feel much more stressed knowing I had only a certain amount of time to heal... cause I am in pain, and I wouldn't want anyone to have to work with this pain...
Well, i'm starting to feel a little sick, I am going to take a shower... get ready... then relax... Aunt Karen and Elliott should be on their way!

sunday and gorgeous

2006-05-29T01:11:17Z

t'was a gorgeous day today. I awoke in pain - again - damn tonsils... but I suppose I breathe better when I am sleeping.... so it is working for me. Yesterday i woke up in so much pain that my brother Chad brought me to the hospital.... everything was okay, but they increased my pain killers to ones they ACTUALLY WORK!! hahaha, imagine that... before I left they shot a luscious amount of morphine into my equally luscious ass... and let me tell you.... that was fantastic! loved it. I came home... relaxed, actually took a shower and then Nathan came over and we chilled out and watched a movie... it was fucking grand. After nate left my cousin and sister came and picked me up for a few minutes and brought me to Kurts... I left shortly after and Lindsey brought me back here... I love Lindsey... she is always making me feel better!!! i have so many thoughts running through my head... but I cannot sit at this computer any longer... I'm gonna go pass out on the couch... and perhaps Kurt will actually show up and hang out with me tonight... I talked to him awhile ago... and he said he would... we shall seee...

transitions...

2006-05-27T04:04:43Z

... so this is my life.. i have so many new and interesting things happening. some are sad, and some are quote unique and beautiful... i am trying to live life to the fullest and just enjoy people, thoughts, experiences... just fucking breathe it in.

I had surgery this morning...i got my tonsils removed. quite painful at the moment (i am trying to tell myself, the more pain you suffer... the more joy you can contain -- kahlil gibran wrote something like that at one point!)

either way... more to come... i simply LOVE this quote...

Sleep that knits up the ravelled sleave of care
The death of each day's life, sore labour's bath
Balm of hurt minds, great nature's second course,
Chief nourisher in life's feast.
~William Shakespeare, Macbeth

... it reminds me.. i must go... and hopefully heal fast..